Blessings

I have so much to be thankful for! I am coming out of a time in my life over the past few months, where I have felt pretty dispirited. I am wanting another baby (really, just a girl, LOL!) and have been struggling over the unfairness of not being able to get pregnant when I want to. With both boys, there were struggles getting pregnant, and this time it is no different. I have been feeling depressed, jealous of others, and angry. Added to this, Jonathan has been going through some adjustments with his work and the result is that he will have more responsibilities and less time to help me at home. I have been upset about this, and also not really enjoying my job at Arkansas Hospice and the time that I was spending away from Logan and Jack Landon. So I have quit my job and I am now keeping kids in my home. This has been such a blessing! I love being able to spend all of my time now at home with my kids. Instead of looking at quitting my job as a waste of a good education, I am now able to see that what I have been wasting is the chance to spend every moment with my kids. I can only raise my boys once, and I can never get the time that I don't spend with them back. I want them to know that they are my priority. Quitting my job has been such a BLESSING! And to top it off.....God MUST have known what he was doing when he didn't give me another baby just yet, because I'm not even sure any more that it is important for me to have another baby right now. Maybe having other kids that I can keep is more important right now. So everything is working out for the best! Thanksgiving couldn't be coming at a better time!